Leaving the kitchen light on
Tells me that there’s dishes to wash there before going to bed

Turning your blinker on
Lets me know what you’ll do so I won’t panic

That magnetic sign on the dishwasher
Informs me whether the dishes inside it are clean or dirty

The way you answer me in grunts when I ask if you love me
Is a clear enough way to show that you just don’t any more.

No words are needed
No fight must come
Forget the shouting
I’ll just keep mum

I’m just the roadkill you can drive away from.


Guest post: Sometimes solo polyamory is selfish, and that’s okay

Guest post: Sometimes solo polyamory is selfish, and that’s okay.

Ups and Downs

I was stressed out after a lovely bit of news yesterday, that Obama had been reelected, by someone I’d followed last week. Apparently they were not pleased with my friendly messages. However, instead of objecting or silently blocking me, they decided to accuse me of being a “weird” sort of stalker or creep on their blog. It was rude. They also said I’d sent four very long messages through the askbox, which of course is ridiculous as the askbox can only hold 500 characters at a time. 

Anyway in the morning my Bro had sent a supportive and very lovely message at his blog, delighting me no end, and later on in the day I was talking with several great friends …[redacted]. What was odd about that was that I knew them from FB before and had separately befriended them at Tumblr with a totally different persona, and they didn’t tell me that I already knew them! It was surprising to discover this was the same person. They told me themselves, though, and I appreciated their candor and I think we’re doing OK. I had after all had similar experiences roleplaying as my ARG characters, and some others through anonymous messages, most of which experience ended abruptly when I admitted who I really was. It sort of sucks.

Anyway I love you, friends, and just feel blessed to have you in my life. I hope you will stay. 


Oh and PS I will change my URL today, I think or tomorrow morning. 

I’m so worried…

I’m so worried now. I have sent big message bombs out to people I love, probably more than they realized before or more than they want me to do, and they are SILENT on their end despite repeated messages. I fear they now want nothing to do with me.

I realize it MIGHT be just that they’re busy or whatever, but I fear it’s the end. HELP!



Which way did ‘e go?

I just don’t like the default first post so I’m putting this in place instead!

I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I hate all.

Everything, surrounding me and elsewhere, can all go to perdition. In a hurry, at best.

Please. Let my life just lapse or expire, in an instant. Let all this stress just stop, and my life with it.